![IMG_20250608_084927.jpg](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmXPWSvvF1WCRPEKiSRsDgtC4xAgj8HnpdEdEjZmStoeCi/IMG_20250608_084927.jpg) [Source - @cryptopie]() ##### Sideways up-side down I love you sign or I was given the middle finger. ![IMG_20250608_113022.jpg](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmTbCy4eueUskvtwNFT6HMWsKGPt8bkfPYR2TQiAUFa9QQ/IMG_20250608_113022.jpg) [Source - @cryptopie]() ##### ![IMG_20250608_084804.jpg](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmXHyBdapszGxemFkxo8Si1z1htYGwQUUMSQtUnFF7v2nc/IMG_20250608_084804.jpg) [Source - @cryptopie]() ##### ![IMG_20250608_084653.jpg](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmcMfeVxD4jaW9dtr9UmwC6HBVxhgAqRnUpQK68yDDNpZr/IMG_20250608_084653.jpg) [Source - @cryptopie]() ##### In a way I do like my life because if I would think of it, I am progressing. It is better then regressing or just being stagnant if not no prospect in the future just like many people where a level of uncertainty is overpowering their lives. In my case I do have different uncertainty and that is about my health issue. It is only the mercy and grace of God that I am surviving and without the power and influence of God in my life, I could have been a soil many years ago. If I would think about what happened in my life, I could say that things feel into their proper places for my benefit and I feel like my fate is being protected. Like for example if my brother in tandem with my Aunt not funding the taxi service which was their venture to earn our family a living even though my father suddenly sold the right for that taxi to operate, I would have a lot of trouble for my need to be transported to and from the dialysis clinic which I went to and from all the past years of being a dialysis patient. Then there's this, if my supportive brother didn't joined our church, then he would have been not that supportive or just be like my eldest brother which is not ready to help me even in the beginning. The support of this brother of mine had been a big crucial factor about my survival as a dialysis patient because in the beginning he with the help of my mother would go to loan sharks just to get some money for paying for my dialysis treatments and then he will pay it with his salary considering that he is just starting with his job during that time while my other siblings are still in school/college while my eldest brother returned to college to pursue a career as a teacher because he figured-out that his trade skill of being a welder will not really give him an ample amount of money to raise a family. All the while when I was just so penniless that I would grip a twenty-peso bill because if I would lose it, I will have no more money to spend. I even ask my mother to give me some coins so that I could buy myself some candies and those were the years when I stopped going to College because my brain and body could not really cope anymore so I told my self to just stop until things would get better, it didn't until my Kidneys conked-out after even trying to get them fixed by going to the large hospital in the city but of no use because of the kind of Kidney disease which even if I get a transplant, the Kidneys would start to get inflamed again until they fail again not to mention that I am positive for Hep B which made the treatment not to push through. But my brother which I am referring (not the eldest), will for certain limit his support for me and that is what I was thinking all the time because for one thing, he is not obligated to help me and this is true for my parents, none of them are. It is just the love of my family prevails although financially it is just so limited because we are just poor, it so happens that my siblings now have jobs along with their spouses which would be the reason that we or they are belonging to middle income when their salaries are combined with their spouses. But my point is regarding my brother, he will soon raise a family of his own during that time that he was still single and will certainly prioritize his family over me. In fact he was giving me an allowance regularly until his maid asked for a raise and it affected my allowance getting slashed more than half. I reckon he took some of my allowance and gave it to his dodgy maid who actually faked a call saying that he plans to leave because she found a better paying job while she can be heard by my brother. How I learned about it, well my brother told us, he raised her salary anyways because it is hard to get another maid considering that he already had a kid and both him and his wife is working. But it affected the amount of allowance which I received after. However I didn't complain nor even talked about it because for one thing I do not want to bother my brother about me, it is is just that I am just helpless during those times that I have to get have some money because I was a dialysis patient already and could not possibly work because I am weak all the time and do not feel well all the time as my dialysis treatments are always to far in-between and also my normal mobility also didn't help. Fortunately after my effort of finding ways to make money from the internet, I did found it although it was short-lived, it worked as my gateway to investing and more. For investing, I did lose a whole lot but at least I was able to keep some which I do think is far more better than anyone can think of in terms of financial success. This peculiar financial venture which I went into had truly pulled a needle from my family's throats especially from my brother which will not worry anymore about supporting me financially. It's the same with liberating my parents from worrying deeply because of me unlike before when we were just relying on a small store that my mother operates until she closed it because all of our needs are just taken from it because my father sold the taxi's right to operate all of a sudden and buying a useless air compressor and then a pesticide after he saw the chili pepper plant bore some while insects. Like what I said earlier, things went into their proper places to make me survive with a flair and utmost relative success. It was like if I haven't done this then this would not have happened to my benefit scenario and it feels like I was being prevented from failing. I do think that it is a mercy and grace of God because even though I am the lowest of the low, I am always trying to do what is good and only God I think will ever know what my heart contains or wants and could be one reason why I am, like this! #### Photography device: Vivo X200 PRO #### Camera Sensors: 50 MP Main Camera #### Camera Mode: Photo ##### ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ɪᴍᴀɢᴇs ᴀʙᴏᴠᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴏᴡɴᴇᴅ ʙʏ @cryptopie 𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘥

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