# Have I lived my life ... ![death.png](https://steemitimages.com/DQmbjVXFzJtEWxKZqNBQX1NBHw8ULUTfZm8MQqQUXs9zSia/death.png)
> ## "Life is a brief intermission between birth and death - enjoy it!"
Hmmm. I do not feel like writing. I do not feel like doing anything actually. A loved one's departure weighs heavily on my mind. I am, however, working on pulling myself together. Piece by painful piece. It is as difficult as putting together a mirror broken in thousands of shards. I know some shards have gone missing forever. A part of me is lost. This picture of a crystal skull bottle I took a month ago was to be symbolic of alcoholism dangers but it has assumed a totally different meaning for me now.

https://steemitimages.com/DQmYDhkJSSzi6QHimeM6P8FUiwPk5fca9jNGMQbv9xu2Zyh/DSCN6745_1024x768.jpg

We all experience death in our life times - even as we live. The death of a loved one feels as painful as dying itself. It is natural for me to feel morbid, sad and hurt a lot inside. It also makes me think of what I should be really thinking about. What should be my thoughts if death is at my doorstep? Have I arrived at the end appropriately after enjoying the brief interlude of life? Thousands of thoughts will crowd my mind at that point. Will I even have a functional mind left at that point? If yes, then what should I think and not think about? What would be my priorities? ## What I should NOT be thinking about I know for sure, based on the experience of the death of a beloved family member, these are the top 3 things I will NOT think about: * **Death** - Death is something that is inevitable. Thinking about it and worrying about it will not make my remaining life easy or better. I will not think of death and be afraid. I will think of life that is left and use my time to the fullest. * **Myself** - I will have plenty of time to be with myself after I die ( in some form of afterlife or while I wait for judgement day - depending on my religious leaning). I will think of others and what I can do to make their lives better. * **Regrets** - There will be a lot of things that I will regret at any point in my life. As I live on, some mistakes will happen and some will keep happening. Dwelling on regrets will not stop generating new causes of regrets. At least, by not dwelling on them, I will avoid a frame of mind that is more prone to regrets. ## What I must think about * **My possessions** - Contrary to popular belief, I think I WILL think about my possessions and property. Not for myself though. You see, I will want to be satisfied that my loved ones that I will be leaving behind are well provided for. I have to make that my first priority. I need to make sure I leave my affairs in order and ensure that it is easy for my family to enjoy whatever comforts that I want to continue providing them after my death. * **Leaving happy memories behind** - My family and friends will spend time with me but I do not want to be remembered as a cranky, dependent or horrible person. I will want to think about being patient, setting aside my ego and leaving a good impression. LAST IMPRESSIONS ARE IMPORTANT TOO! * **Life** - I will think of life. Life as I have lived it. Life in all those tiny, beautiful moments preserved in every little corner of my mind. Life that has made me what I am. Life that is entwined with many other lives that I care about. Life that has made me walk bravely through the storms and life that has made at least a tiny bit of difference in this world... My incoherent ramblings may perhaps jolt you but mark my words, some day, this is what will be important.
### In Conclusion: ### "The life of the dead is placed in the memory of the living" - Marcus Cicero
### Steemians, please comment freely to share your experiences, knowledge and views about death. Thanks.

[![](https://steemitimages.com/DQmcN8QG3D9k6Gxr1m5nMy7ooLSnE46W3TBRkjodPWagYbG/image.png)](https://steemit.com/@vm2904) Note: All images except for the wildlife photos and the title image created by me are from [pixabay.com](https://pixabay.com/). Image credit has been specifically mentioned for images not falling under these two categories. ![vm2904gif.gif](https://steemitimages.com/DQmQfSDWyDQRHN28N2cAJe9guHQpkG2DbPfSavt56jywdJM/vm2904gif.gif) Gif crafted by the Legendary @stellabelle for me based on my Lion Avatar