Hello, constellations... How is life treating them? Here is a surrealistic self-portrait that I started a long time ago but I finished not long ago.

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmay6zzvXBx7P6PYSoibgQ5Um5vsTAXM6pSuFg4mgBNGiA/image.png)

The face comes from a selfie, the body was an odyssey since I had no where to look and could not make it look real and balanced with the face, I kept doing it that way and added a myriad of details to disguise the defects. I still see them, however I can also see in their imperfection how beautiful this work is, since in it, I notice different stages of my life (I drew, I stopped and months later I started again and always with different moods) and in that sense achieved more than my more realistic portraits, because in him there is a unique emotional charge.

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmdSbrnUeN1tGX2CZCYQJwX3bgsRfwscXwuFNRU7M65Y3o/image.png)

https://i.imgur.com/CWsT4Bj.jpg

You know? The last thing I said made me think of that popular phrase of the artists, that although it is said in different words, it always transmits the same message, it is something like _"I drawing to free myself"_. Did you hear it? I bet yes. As a girl I began to hear the phrase in my school, it came from some children who also drew... By that time I knew enough about the manipulation, therefore, I could only think:

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmTEjedWR3EQTaKduFqR7g7XH1Lp2pHFJaYc8UrVpUZPbg/image.png) [1](https://aminoapps.com/c/anime-es/page/item/deg-kashima-yuu-deg/3WNc_DI04pw40dNJoKvPXMGn4enlV1p)

><> **_That's all I thought as a child_** but as you grow and mature and inculcate in this area, **you start to feel differently**. You become sensitized because you start to really love him... I do not know if I explain myself well, in case I do not, I'll try whit another thing:

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmdSbrnUeN1tGX2CZCYQJwX3bgsRfwscXwuFNRU7M65Y3o/image.png)

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmb6rAVWJLULBNw6LFUqAu1bbT1C8xF4oV2kA3pUW1Af7k/image.png)

#### Another thing:

I have a sister who is a psychologist and she knows about these profound things of human thought... Once we had a conversation, I no longer remember what, but what I do remember is this: -When something bothers you, ask yourself why it bothers you. When you find that the "why" also bothers you, ask again why? and thus a chain of "whys" will arise that will take you to the source of the problem. -Obviously she said it in a more eloquent way but the main idea is that and you can apply it to anything-.

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmdSbrnUeN1tGX2CZCYQJwX3bgsRfwscXwuFNRU7M65Y3o/image.png) # Example:

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmbh8ap7tN4Gg7XL6HWXTXEB4stceGeYTtswRUSsqKdWyQ/image.png) [2](https://www.inspirulina.com/que-funciona-contra-el-bullying.html)

#### -Why do you draw? -Because I like. #### -Because you like it? -Because I can create anything. #### -Why do you want to create things? -Because it distracts me from the bad moment and I can have control of creation, I think.

#### -Why do you want to have control in a drawing? -Because it's the only activity where I can have it. I can not have it outside. #### -By? -This is about bullying. They are too many and I can not defend myself, but I can still draw and keep a bit of control of this situation, or at least of my tears until they get tired and leave me alone.

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmY9HZWdvWCPmqZ5yLxdPK15igutakYQ3BC3RQSWeTgyAn/image.png) [3](http://desarrollocristiano.com/devocional/huir/)

#### -Then you do it to flee? -Most of the time. When I knew it was a defense mechanism I could understand how it could be perfectly possible to express your feelings in a drawing and you realize that when you find one of your old illustrations, you break it because every part of it reminds you of a bad moment in your life.

#### And that's how some artists are born...

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmdSbrnUeN1tGX2CZCYQJwX3bgsRfwscXwuFNRU7M65Y3o/image.png)

https://i.imgur.com/av472Dj.jpg

**A young man feels angry** and takes as an escape to break things, later, probably, he will be an abuser. A young **victim of abuse** who feels angry and takes as an escape to **write** all his frustrations on a sheet, will feed the idea **of becoming a writer** some day. Someone who prefers to download all his rage on a **canvas** to be the same as always, rather than lash out at someone, will be a **plastic artist**... The one who prefers to listen to the strings of **his guitar** before **the insults of his parents** reminding him that he is useless, will be a musician, and **the one who runs far, far away...** It will reach the Olympics. There will be those who will escape their demons by means of narcotics or other vices, but in my opinion this is not one of the most intelligent decisions. **Anyway, we feed what we want, if you want to run away, make sure you create an exit strategy:**

![](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmdSbrnUeN1tGX2CZCYQJwX3bgsRfwscXwuFNRU7M65Y3o/image.png) _**Develop an activity and be the best in it,**_ _**or do something that will serve you in life, that is,**_ #### flees with style 😎 https://youtu.be/pFTjrQv3Wf4

_**P.D: I still believe that those guys just wanted to get attention xDDD...**_ ![UPVOTE BLINKING.gif](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmT3sS92t4pfXQ7ETkSUTBkzCaHLt1ygcTPAANAx6AGJRk/UPVOTE%20BLINKING.gif)