Suicide really looked like the only answer, Now days Im just grateful I finally got my shit together

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I Prayed For an Overdose

I was living my life wishing I were dead Feeling like a book that nobody has read Going through my days trying to numb my pain So I kept pushing that shit through my vein Forgot all about all the things that I ever held dear Running out of dope was my only fear There once was a time my life was full of hope But I fucked around and gave it up for dope I keep ending up running the street Wishing for death not admitting defeat My nights were spent in the back of a u-haul Contemplating my misdeeds and not realizing my downfall All I ever wanted was for this shit to be done Because I've gone nowhere but was always on the run I do all the wrong things to fill the void in my heart So I ran from Baltimore to get a fresh start An old junkie buddy said its all about being grateful But its not easy to wake up every day and not be hateful I forgot myself years ago, for a decade I sat on a shelf Now putting in the work to learn about myself Sometimes it's hard cause I don't know what to feel Just look at my past, you really think I'll ever heal All the time finding myself playing with my old scars And wonder how and why I've gotten this far They used to tell me stupid shit like God has a plan for me But fuck back then I didn't know what it could even be Through my own chapters of my book more has been revealed And now I’m realizing that a lot of my scars have been healed Now that my issues have been unraveled It's time to take the road less traveled No longer am I craving to shoot dope And help others who think there life has no hope I'm no longer wandering like the living dead All because I've learned to control what is in my head Suicide really looked like the only answer Now days Im just grateful I finally got my shit together
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