It's no mystery, that people put on masks to cover their true feelings. For example I am most of the time threated as a piece of thrash by people and nobody gives me even a little bit of respect. Most of the time you wouldn't notice that, since I am a great actor and I can hide those feelings. However just because I can hide, that doesn't mean that they disappear. Those things are like pests ripping apart every piece of happiness. Hell, I developed a social anxiety. To this day when I want to say/write something, I have to muster my energy and stop fearing what people thing about every word I am able to produce.

Go ahead! Imagine not being able to feel happiness or love to another person! And when you are trying to tell people about your feelings, they are going to brush you of and call you a drama queen, beacuse they are to busy thinking about themselves. They don't want to waste their "precious" time dealing with your stuff. Heck, They think you are just making those things up just to make yourself unique. Are they crazy? Who would wwant to go through all that pain and suffering.

Each thing I am able to do, every small or big success, is important for me. This should give you an insight into my mind.

Now imagine you are in my shoes. You are a giant pile of nerves, which gets crazy over every small detail. I have been on this platform for over a year. I was able to even make some acquaintances. I reached 100 subscribers and got some upvotes on my posts. Yes, it felt slightly weird, that I only got 1 or 2 upvotes on my posts, but hey I thought, maybe my posts aren't just good enough. The time went and more and more followers were following me, however the amount of upvotes and comments did not change at all.

That just felt weird to me. WHY WOULD PEOPLE BOTHER TO FOLLOW A PERSON, WHEN THEY DON'T EVEN READ THAT PERSON'S CONTENT? I stopped posting for a few months, as I was busy with the work.

Then one day I am reading threw my feed here on Steemit and saw a post from @bigdeej and inspired by this post, I started writing again. After posting my first post after the hiatus a miracle happened. Out of nowhere I got around 60 new followers. Indeed, for a measly level 40 it was a miracle. With each new post I gained more and more followers. I thought great, more readers for my content. Oh, how fucking stupid I was! Nothing changed. I am getting the same amount of upvotes like before the hiatus and only people, who comment under my posts, are me, the same guys, who commented under my posts before the hiatus and bots.

Again I have to ask. WHY WOULD PEOPLE BOTHER TO FOLLOW A PERSON, WHEN THEY DON'T EVEN READ THAT PERSON'S CONTENT? I am not saying, that you should religiously follow everything, the poster does, but you should choose to follow the steemer, because you like their content. Not because an outsider promises you to give money.

HOW CAN WE GROW AS A COMMUNITY, WHEN MOST PEOPLE HERE ARE ONLY INTERESTED IN MAKING MONEY?

Or maybe look to deep into it. Maybe, just maybe most of the people I surround myself with are like that. Who knows maybe I am just unlucky and I missed the nice ones.